I'm still trying to figure out how to balance it all. Last year I don't think I felt this overwhelmed, but only because I was naive about college as a whole. I thought I could handle 18 units, marching band commitment, and a social life. I couldn't.
This year I know I can handle it much better than before, but I'm also trying to realistically organize and allocate time wisely for each commitment. Personal commitments are harder to handle though. I can't make as many phone calls. I can't visit as many friends. I can't go home every other weekend. My family might not see me for multiple weeks at a time. To some that might not sound bad, but for me it is. As much as I can get irritated with my overbearing grandparents, troubled father, and distant mother, there's still a void in me when I'm away from them for a long period. I even worry about what will happen once I graduate. Will I be able to get a job and stay close to home? Will a lack of money cause my mom to move away?
But I just have to keep living day-to-day. That's how I've survived the first 19 years of my life, and that's how I hope to continue surviving.
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i totally understand the family thing. and kudos for being ambitious shiit i can barely handle 3 classes at a time hahaha
ReplyDelete"keep living day-to-day". sweet advice.
that's how all of us are surviving. you'll get through it, dont worry.
ReplyDeletei miss your phone calls but i understand you have a lot to do. we always have handwritten letters...
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