Today was baby Fernando's first birthday and Monday is my mommy's birthday. If she gets Sunday off, we're going to have a little party, so hopefully I can invite some of my friends. =) I told Becky about it last week and it sounds like she was available. Yay! I'll invite Doris and she'll say no. I'll invite Melissa and she'll say yes. Haha.
My Grandma and I went to Old Navy to buy presents; we got my mom the same kind of jeans that I wear, since she makes such a big deal about how much she likes them. She borrowed a pair and wore them for like 3 days! So I figured she should really have her own pair. We got baby Fernando a little t-shirt and a pair of shorts. Baby clothes are da cutest.
It's so weird how people can go through such varying degrees of closeness with friends. One month you and a friend are on the same wavelength, confiding in each other and helping de-stress. Then the next month it's, like, different. You and that friend go for days and weeks without talking, and it feels like there's an underlying tension. I don't know how to approach it at all. I want to tell this person that I'm upset that we don't talk anymore, that I wish I could be a part of their life again. I might be overreacting since life, school, and responsibilities can get in the way, but it's still had a fairly major impact on me.
I'll learn to fill the void.
Tonight my dad asked if I wanted to go for a walk with him. He usually walks with his gf in the evening, but tonight I guess she was too lazy. We left during the 2nd quarter of the Laker game. I trusted the Lakers to maintain the lead while I was gone. Anyhow, my dad and I got around to talking about basketball. I had told him that he and I need to start playing this summer so we can get in shape. We both hate walking/running and would much prefer to play basketball, but we're having trouble getting a decent basketball to use.
He started telling me about the last time he'd played basketball–in jail. Haha. I was very entertained by this. It was the first time he'd told me anything about his time in jail. He said he played a few times while he was in there, but that the guys were too rough. Apparently they were rough because they were playing for a candy bar! HAHA. He said he'd go in for a layup and always get hit with a hard foul, and that a lot of the guys were surprised at how good he was.
Yup. That's my dad.
30.5.09
27.5.09
Bahumbug
At this point I feel very alone.
I have no one to hang out with during the day except my little brothers. I mean, I love them more than life itself, but I can't have any real conversations with them. And when my mom's home, I can't even talk to her. I'm so jealous of my friends who seem to talk about everything with their moms. My mom never knows what goes on in my life. I've never asked her for guy advice. I've never told her when my heart was broken. I've never cried to her about anything. It's all superficial. We're both stubborn, that's why. She won't tell me when she's mad unless I ask, and I won't tell her when I'm mad unless she asks me.
I never thought I'd say this, but I envision myself talking more to my dad about my personal issues. Even after all the problems I've had with him, he seems to understand and sympathize with any issues I might have. He understands the problems I have with my grandparents, with money, and even with school. Our relationship is more open. Tomorrow I'll see him and probably talk to him about my broken heart.
When it comes to talking with friends, I've been very shut off for the past couple of weeks. The only tool I really have is my phone. I've sent out a lot of lengthy text messages. That's all I have. That, and this blog. But after a while it feels like I'm just pestering my friends, so I start this process of shutting myself off. This is when I start bottling things up. This is when I start internally imploding.
I have no one to hang out with during the day except my little brothers. I mean, I love them more than life itself, but I can't have any real conversations with them. And when my mom's home, I can't even talk to her. I'm so jealous of my friends who seem to talk about everything with their moms. My mom never knows what goes on in my life. I've never asked her for guy advice. I've never told her when my heart was broken. I've never cried to her about anything. It's all superficial. We're both stubborn, that's why. She won't tell me when she's mad unless I ask, and I won't tell her when I'm mad unless she asks me.
I never thought I'd say this, but I envision myself talking more to my dad about my personal issues. Even after all the problems I've had with him, he seems to understand and sympathize with any issues I might have. He understands the problems I have with my grandparents, with money, and even with school. Our relationship is more open. Tomorrow I'll see him and probably talk to him about my broken heart.
When it comes to talking with friends, I've been very shut off for the past couple of weeks. The only tool I really have is my phone. I've sent out a lot of lengthy text messages. That's all I have. That, and this blog. But after a while it feels like I'm just pestering my friends, so I start this process of shutting myself off. This is when I start bottling things up. This is when I start internally imploding.
25.5.09
I See It Around Me, I See It In Everything
Haven't written in a while. I always think about writing as the day winds down, but I end up getting too lazy or distracted.
The last few days have and haven't been exciting.
I visited the old high school on Wednesday. I only visited Mr. Bermudez (Math) and Mr. Roberts (English) though. Melissa really wanted me to go to journalism, but I had not mentally prepped for that. I'm weird like that. Like, I liking to plan/think ahead of time what's gonna happen when I go somewhere. That day, I had only planned on visiting those two classrooms. I'm weird like that. I guess I just don't like when things don't go as I had mentally planned. SO, I stuck to my plan. Sorry, Melissa. Haha.
Bermudez was cool...I waltzed in, sat down next to him, said "Whats up!!" Haha. I had my backpack too, so I blended in with all the other kiddos. I wish I could have talked more to Bermudez, but he was busy I guess. Every time I try to visit him, he acts quite busy! Like, I'll try to talk to him about more personal things but then he'll just ignore me or be distracted by something else. So I mostly used his computer and talked to Melissa during 4th period.
So after 4th, I went to lunch with Melissa and her peeps in the senior gardens. That was kinda nice. I didn't eat anything, but I got to talk to them and catch up. This kid Alfonso is the nicest guy! He's Danny's little brother, and Danny is Janet's boyfriend, and Janny are some of my closest pals. =) I headed to Roberts' class with Alfonso. Melissa contemplated ditching journalism and coming with us, but she ended up going to journalism.
As we walked down the hall, I saw my cousin Jeff saying sup to all his vatos or whatever, so I surprised him and did a little fist bump thing or whatever. "SUP!" "You go to this school now? Since when?" Haha. I told him I had just enrolled. We're such kidders.
Roberts was happy (?) to see me? I can never tell with that guy. He greeted me pretty warmly though. I told him I was there to sub. Heehee. After his 5th period class we got to talk a little bit. I helped take down a lot of his old posters and postcards since he'll need to start cleaning up for his retirement. I took some select postcards, but a lot I left for other students to peruse and take. Too bad most of them came from Ms. Saxton...that was pretty anticlimactic. I thought there was more of a history behind the postcards, but they mostly contained notes asking Bill if he had x number of copies for whatever book, or some dry erase markers. Lame. I guess you can't judge a postcard by its cover. HA.
While I was there, Roberts mentioned that he can't remember ever seeing so many pregnant girls at school. That was really upsetting to me. It's so frustrating that our school board is so completely naive that they won't even allow sex education to be taught. Like there's no connection between the high pregnancy rate and lack of sex education?? Damn it. We still offer home ec/cooking classes, but no sex ed. Ain't that lovely. Here, learn how to cook since you're bound to get pregnant soon.
Moving on.
Thursday I babysat my brothers in the afternoon until my mom got home from work. I decided to take them to have their first ice cream cones. =) I put baby Fernando in the stroller, and Henry and Jonathan each grabbed a side of the stroller. It was super adorable. We walked over to the ice cream place and I ordered them two chocolate ice cream cones. I told the lady not to put too much ice cream, but she didn't understand. Ugh. So I gave Henry and Jonathan a giant cone each and they made a huge mess. But I still loved every minute of it. "Mmmm, rico!" Haha. I got some cute pictures on my camera phone.
Later that evening Janet's mom picked me and Vinnie up to drive to Santa Barbara for Janet's graduation. Yay!! We had In N Out before we left and it was freakin delicious. My first In N Out burger of the summer. Epic.
The drive wasn't too bad. Vinnie and I were freaking out about the Laker game. I kept getting Google updates, and the score was always so close! We weren't too happy to hear they had lost, but whatever. At least they won the next game. Janet's mom was pretty entertained by our making such a big deal out of it though. It's the playoffs though! She can't judge us.
Anywayyyy, we got to Janet's around 9:30 that night. Her and Danny have a very nice little apartment. It felt very home-y. I slept on the top bunk of the bunk bed, Janet and her mom took the bottom, and Vinnie slept on the couch. Danny slept over at a friend's house because he was afraid of what would happen if Janet's dad showed up and saw him sleeping there. He worried over nothing! Her dad didn't show up until much later than he said he would.
Albert, Sammy, Pam and Rochelle arrived Friday morning for the graduation. It was nice to see all of them, especially Pam since I don't get many chances to really talk to her. That afternoon we walked around SB. We went to the beach for a little while and walked along the shore, then we went to a playground near Janet's apartment for Rochelle to play at. Omg I raced Rochelle down the slide. Not gonna lie, that was pretty fun.
Toward the end some of us were playing on the monkey bars. Albert got on them, swung himself with one hand, and fell on his ass! It was the funniest thing I've seen in a while. I vividly remember it in my head. I wish I could have a .gif made of it. Oh wellz.
The time finally came around for Janet's graduation. The ceremony was very nice and short. There weren't too many graduates, so that was a plus. When Janet's name was said, her entire family and all of her friends cheered loudly and proudly =). Afterward we were supposed to go to Outback Steakhouse, but the restaurant didn't have our table ready. -__- But, there was a pizza parlor across the street glad to accommodate us, so our gang of Mexicans migrated over there. The pizza was soooo good. PLUS, they were showing the Cleveland-Orlando game on a big screen television. OMG that was the craziest game. Freakin' LeBron James and his three-point abilities. I was pretty heartbroken that Orlando didn't win.
Anyway, it was still a nice meal. Rochelle was a little diva the whole time! She likes having everyone's attention.
I came home Saturday. Yousaf's mom Gracie was nice enough to let me ride back with her, little Abraham, and the grandparents. Abraham was really entertaining. He kept saying "There's traffits!" Hahaha. Kids mispronouncing things is so entertaining. Like when Henry calls Jonathan "Jotanan" Awwwwww. It melts my heart.
Anyway. The car ride wasn't too bad. I was afraid it might be awkward because Yousaf's grandma sometimes puts me on the spot about things. But she was really quiet! I didn't understand why she talked so little. I think most of us were exhausted though, especially since most of the festivities were a little rushed.
To be continued...
The last few days have and haven't been exciting.
I visited the old high school on Wednesday. I only visited Mr. Bermudez (Math) and Mr. Roberts (English) though. Melissa really wanted me to go to journalism, but I had not mentally prepped for that. I'm weird like that. Like, I liking to plan/think ahead of time what's gonna happen when I go somewhere. That day, I had only planned on visiting those two classrooms. I'm weird like that. I guess I just don't like when things don't go as I had mentally planned. SO, I stuck to my plan. Sorry, Melissa. Haha.
Bermudez was cool...I waltzed in, sat down next to him, said "Whats up!!" Haha. I had my backpack too, so I blended in with all the other kiddos. I wish I could have talked more to Bermudez, but he was busy I guess. Every time I try to visit him, he acts quite busy! Like, I'll try to talk to him about more personal things but then he'll just ignore me or be distracted by something else. So I mostly used his computer and talked to Melissa during 4th period.
So after 4th, I went to lunch with Melissa and her peeps in the senior gardens. That was kinda nice. I didn't eat anything, but I got to talk to them and catch up. This kid Alfonso is the nicest guy! He's Danny's little brother, and Danny is Janet's boyfriend, and Janny are some of my closest pals. =) I headed to Roberts' class with Alfonso. Melissa contemplated ditching journalism and coming with us, but she ended up going to journalism.
As we walked down the hall, I saw my cousin Jeff saying sup to all his vatos or whatever, so I surprised him and did a little fist bump thing or whatever. "SUP!" "You go to this school now? Since when?" Haha. I told him I had just enrolled. We're such kidders.
Roberts was happy (?) to see me? I can never tell with that guy. He greeted me pretty warmly though. I told him I was there to sub. Heehee. After his 5th period class we got to talk a little bit. I helped take down a lot of his old posters and postcards since he'll need to start cleaning up for his retirement. I took some select postcards, but a lot I left for other students to peruse and take. Too bad most of them came from Ms. Saxton...that was pretty anticlimactic. I thought there was more of a history behind the postcards, but they mostly contained notes asking Bill if he had x number of copies for whatever book, or some dry erase markers. Lame. I guess you can't judge a postcard by its cover. HA.
While I was there, Roberts mentioned that he can't remember ever seeing so many pregnant girls at school. That was really upsetting to me. It's so frustrating that our school board is so completely naive that they won't even allow sex education to be taught. Like there's no connection between the high pregnancy rate and lack of sex education?? Damn it. We still offer home ec/cooking classes, but no sex ed. Ain't that lovely. Here, learn how to cook since you're bound to get pregnant soon.
Moving on.
Thursday I babysat my brothers in the afternoon until my mom got home from work. I decided to take them to have their first ice cream cones. =) I put baby Fernando in the stroller, and Henry and Jonathan each grabbed a side of the stroller. It was super adorable. We walked over to the ice cream place and I ordered them two chocolate ice cream cones. I told the lady not to put too much ice cream, but she didn't understand. Ugh. So I gave Henry and Jonathan a giant cone each and they made a huge mess. But I still loved every minute of it. "Mmmm, rico!" Haha. I got some cute pictures on my camera phone.
Later that evening Janet's mom picked me and Vinnie up to drive to Santa Barbara for Janet's graduation. Yay!! We had In N Out before we left and it was freakin delicious. My first In N Out burger of the summer. Epic.
The drive wasn't too bad. Vinnie and I were freaking out about the Laker game. I kept getting Google updates, and the score was always so close! We weren't too happy to hear they had lost, but whatever. At least they won the next game. Janet's mom was pretty entertained by our making such a big deal out of it though. It's the playoffs though! She can't judge us.
Anywayyyy, we got to Janet's around 9:30 that night. Her and Danny have a very nice little apartment. It felt very home-y. I slept on the top bunk of the bunk bed, Janet and her mom took the bottom, and Vinnie slept on the couch. Danny slept over at a friend's house because he was afraid of what would happen if Janet's dad showed up and saw him sleeping there. He worried over nothing! Her dad didn't show up until much later than he said he would.
Albert, Sammy, Pam and Rochelle arrived Friday morning for the graduation. It was nice to see all of them, especially Pam since I don't get many chances to really talk to her. That afternoon we walked around SB. We went to the beach for a little while and walked along the shore, then we went to a playground near Janet's apartment for Rochelle to play at. Omg I raced Rochelle down the slide. Not gonna lie, that was pretty fun.
Toward the end some of us were playing on the monkey bars. Albert got on them, swung himself with one hand, and fell on his ass! It was the funniest thing I've seen in a while. I vividly remember it in my head. I wish I could have a .gif made of it. Oh wellz.
The time finally came around for Janet's graduation. The ceremony was very nice and short. There weren't too many graduates, so that was a plus. When Janet's name was said, her entire family and all of her friends cheered loudly and proudly =). Afterward we were supposed to go to Outback Steakhouse, but the restaurant didn't have our table ready. -__- But, there was a pizza parlor across the street glad to accommodate us, so our gang of Mexicans migrated over there. The pizza was soooo good. PLUS, they were showing the Cleveland-Orlando game on a big screen television. OMG that was the craziest game. Freakin' LeBron James and his three-point abilities. I was pretty heartbroken that Orlando didn't win.
Anyway, it was still a nice meal. Rochelle was a little diva the whole time! She likes having everyone's attention.
I came home Saturday. Yousaf's mom Gracie was nice enough to let me ride back with her, little Abraham, and the grandparents. Abraham was really entertaining. He kept saying "There's traffits!" Hahaha. Kids mispronouncing things is so entertaining. Like when Henry calls Jonathan "Jotanan" Awwwwww. It melts my heart.
Anyway. The car ride wasn't too bad. I was afraid it might be awkward because Yousaf's grandma sometimes puts me on the spot about things. But she was really quiet! I didn't understand why she talked so little. I think most of us were exhausted though, especially since most of the festivities were a little rushed.
To be continued...
18.5.09
Weenie Roast
Omg Weenie Roast...this blog will do it very little justice.
Felipa and I got to the venue around 3:30 and had to wait in line a while to get in.
When we finally got in, we bought t-shirts right away. Felipa bought a Weenie Roast 2009 shirt, while I bought a Jimmy Eat World (!!!!!) shirt. =) I was so happy.
Then we roamed around and checked out various vendors. We came to the guest services table, where they were selling $10 tickets to a bunch of other concerts. One of the concerts was The Offspring!!! I had wanted to go before but didn't want to splurge on one more concert, so I didn't buy tickets. But this deal was too good to pass up. I called Monica to see if she'd be down to go and she said, "I'd be so DOWN." So I bought two tickets for Friday, June 5th at Irvine. Yay! I can't wait for her to visit.
Dexter Holland, for those of you who don't know, is a USC alumnus and the marching band plays a bunch of Offspring songs. So this concert can only be fully enjoyed with a fellow band member, especially my roommate =)
I digress.
After that I told Felipa we should head to our seats because I wanted to see Airborne Toxic Event. It's sad, but I only wanted to see them for their one famous song, "Sometime Around Midnight." However, their other songs were pretty good too! And the lead singer was a hottie. When they played their one famous song though, I was so happy! That song makes me want to cry every time I hear it. It's one of those songs that you wish applied to your life.
Next up were The Silversun Pickups. They were probably my least favorite of the show. Not that they were bad, it's just that I only know one of their songs and they didn't seem too exciting. Although, the female bassist was so cool! She reminded me of Maggie Gylenhaal. I definitely had a girl crush on her.
A part of me also couldn't enjoy The Silversun Pickups because I was totally freaking out that Weezer was the next band! It kept going through my mind. I wanted to see them already! I kept wanting Silversun to play Lazy Eye already because that would definitely signal the end of their set.
Once Silversun was done, I was so excitedddd! The rotating stage moved, and this couch with five guys sitting on it emerged. It was WEEZER! They were all wearing snuggies, sunglasses, and loafing on a couch. Omg major amazingness...
First they played the Sweater Song. Rivers Cuomo took off his snuggie to reveal some hot pink straight jeans (!!!) and a grey shirt. The whole time they played I just wanted to give Rivers a huge hug! They played other songs like Troublemaker, Hashpipe (so good), Beverly Hills, Pork and Beans, Perfect Situation, Say It Ain't So, Buddy Holly, and Island In The Sun.
BUT. The best and most surprising and most jizz-worthy part of their set was, without a doubt, their cover of MGMT's Kids. Rivers said, "Let's get down," as three of the guys made their way over to some keyboard setups. When they started playing Kids, everyone was kinda like "What the..." but in a good way! Then in the middle of the song, they transitioned to Lady Gaga's Poker Face!! The way Rivers sang "P-p-p-poker face" was the most adorable thing I have ever seen and heard. Aww and the bald spot in the back of his head is even adorable to me! Oh dear. Another unhealthy obsession. =)
What's really cool is that the entire crowd was pretty much into their set. Everyone was standing up, singing along to every song they played. It felt so good to be there. Weezer! I still can't believe it was Weezer. It's like one of those things you never think you'll get to go to, but then you do get to go, and you don't believe that you went...does that make sense?
When their set ended, a little part of me was very sad. But still so happy. The Yeah Yeah Yeahs were up next, but I really had to pee. So Felipa and I went. Neither one of us are huge YYY fans, but I usually like whatever I hear from them. Felipa thinks they sound too much like The Pretenders. We went potty and got back just in time to hear their last song. I really liked watching the lead singer. She's full of energy and her voice is so funky! I likez it a lotz.
Then it was JIMMY EAT WORLD!!! Ahhhhhhhhh! As if the concert couldn't get any better. Jim Adkins looked exactly the same as always. He's so awesome! And the guitarist, I forget his name, was super awesome too. They played Futures, Sugar on the Asphalt(? i don't think that's the name of the song), Work, A Praise Chorus, The Middle, Chase this Light, Always Be, Let it Happen...and some others. =) A part of me wished they had played some more of their older stuff, but it's all good. I really really really want to see them again in concert. With Liz!
Kings of Leon played their set after JEW, and it was supah awesome also. I was surprised that they played Sex On Fire in the middle of the set rather than at the end. Every song sounded amazing! It was like having all their music come to life. Their instrument-playing skills are great and the lead singer's voice is so freakin sexy. Yum.
After them was Rancid...they put on a good show, I was just kinda bored because I don't know any of their music. Next was Travis Barker and DJ AM. I don't know what to say about them.
Travis is very talented.
Overall though, Weenie Roast was the BEST way to kick off my summer. I feel like it was a good sign of things to come. I will be extremely broke for the next 3 months, but the music I'll be listening to will rock my world.
Felipa and I got to the venue around 3:30 and had to wait in line a while to get in.
When we finally got in, we bought t-shirts right away. Felipa bought a Weenie Roast 2009 shirt, while I bought a Jimmy Eat World (!!!!!) shirt. =) I was so happy.
Then we roamed around and checked out various vendors. We came to the guest services table, where they were selling $10 tickets to a bunch of other concerts. One of the concerts was The Offspring!!! I had wanted to go before but didn't want to splurge on one more concert, so I didn't buy tickets. But this deal was too good to pass up. I called Monica to see if she'd be down to go and she said, "I'd be so DOWN." So I bought two tickets for Friday, June 5th at Irvine. Yay! I can't wait for her to visit.
Dexter Holland, for those of you who don't know, is a USC alumnus and the marching band plays a bunch of Offspring songs. So this concert can only be fully enjoyed with a fellow band member, especially my roommate =)
I digress.
After that I told Felipa we should head to our seats because I wanted to see Airborne Toxic Event. It's sad, but I only wanted to see them for their one famous song, "Sometime Around Midnight." However, their other songs were pretty good too! And the lead singer was a hottie. When they played their one famous song though, I was so happy! That song makes me want to cry every time I hear it. It's one of those songs that you wish applied to your life.
Next up were The Silversun Pickups. They were probably my least favorite of the show. Not that they were bad, it's just that I only know one of their songs and they didn't seem too exciting. Although, the female bassist was so cool! She reminded me of Maggie Gylenhaal. I definitely had a girl crush on her.
A part of me also couldn't enjoy The Silversun Pickups because I was totally freaking out that Weezer was the next band! It kept going through my mind. I wanted to see them already! I kept wanting Silversun to play Lazy Eye already because that would definitely signal the end of their set.
Once Silversun was done, I was so excitedddd! The rotating stage moved, and this couch with five guys sitting on it emerged. It was WEEZER! They were all wearing snuggies, sunglasses, and loafing on a couch. Omg major amazingness...
First they played the Sweater Song. Rivers Cuomo took off his snuggie to reveal some hot pink straight jeans (!!!) and a grey shirt. The whole time they played I just wanted to give Rivers a huge hug! They played other songs like Troublemaker, Hashpipe (so good), Beverly Hills, Pork and Beans, Perfect Situation, Say It Ain't So, Buddy Holly, and Island In The Sun.
BUT. The best and most surprising and most jizz-worthy part of their set was, without a doubt, their cover of MGMT's Kids. Rivers said, "Let's get down," as three of the guys made their way over to some keyboard setups. When they started playing Kids, everyone was kinda like "What the..." but in a good way! Then in the middle of the song, they transitioned to Lady Gaga's Poker Face!! The way Rivers sang "P-p-p-poker face" was the most adorable thing I have ever seen and heard. Aww and the bald spot in the back of his head is even adorable to me! Oh dear. Another unhealthy obsession. =)
What's really cool is that the entire crowd was pretty much into their set. Everyone was standing up, singing along to every song they played. It felt so good to be there. Weezer! I still can't believe it was Weezer. It's like one of those things you never think you'll get to go to, but then you do get to go, and you don't believe that you went...does that make sense?
When their set ended, a little part of me was very sad. But still so happy. The Yeah Yeah Yeahs were up next, but I really had to pee. So Felipa and I went. Neither one of us are huge YYY fans, but I usually like whatever I hear from them. Felipa thinks they sound too much like The Pretenders. We went potty and got back just in time to hear their last song. I really liked watching the lead singer. She's full of energy and her voice is so funky! I likez it a lotz.
Then it was JIMMY EAT WORLD!!! Ahhhhhhhhh! As if the concert couldn't get any better. Jim Adkins looked exactly the same as always. He's so awesome! And the guitarist, I forget his name, was super awesome too. They played Futures, Sugar on the Asphalt(? i don't think that's the name of the song), Work, A Praise Chorus, The Middle, Chase this Light, Always Be, Let it Happen...and some others. =) A part of me wished they had played some more of their older stuff, but it's all good. I really really really want to see them again in concert. With Liz!
Kings of Leon played their set after JEW, and it was supah awesome also. I was surprised that they played Sex On Fire in the middle of the set rather than at the end. Every song sounded amazing! It was like having all their music come to life. Their instrument-playing skills are great and the lead singer's voice is so freakin sexy. Yum.
After them was Rancid...they put on a good show, I was just kinda bored because I don't know any of their music. Next was Travis Barker and DJ AM. I don't know what to say about them.
Travis is very talented.
Overall though, Weenie Roast was the BEST way to kick off my summer. I feel like it was a good sign of things to come. I will be extremely broke for the next 3 months, but the music I'll be listening to will rock my world.
17.5.09
15.5.09
Just Watch the Fireworks
I went to Disneyland today with Monica (roommate), Aislinn and Juan. Aislinn is a fellow band member and Juan lived on our floor...we hadn't planned on him going originally, but it worked out that way. We only had a short while at the parks though because Monica had to be back at SC by 5 for Commencement rehearsal.
We met my mom around 11am at the Monorail station. I like it when my mom meets my friends, I feel like she'll trust me more knowing that I have responsible, nice friends. Some part of my psyche has always suspected that she always thinks I'm lying to her when I tell her where I'm going and who I'll be with. Like in high school, she'd get very suspicious when I'd tell her I was going to hang out with guys. But I couldn't help that most of my friends were guys!
Anyway.
We went to Disneyland first and it was pretty empty! I hadn't been there in at least a year, so it was nice to be back. We went on Space Mountain, the Matterhorn (where Monica lose her phone, though she recovered it soon after), It's a Small World, the Teacups, Big Thunder Mountain, Haunted Mansion, and Pirates of the Caribbean. I think we covered all those rides in about 2.5 hours, which is crazy to think about.
We were hauling ass all over the park.
Juan was always like 20 feet ahead of us because he's apparently in love with Disneyland. Who would have known? He wore this crazy orange shirt with a glow-in-the-dark illustration of Mickey Mouse on it. So when we waited in line in dark places like Space Mountain, Mickey glowed! =)
Aislinn was really enthusiastic about going on It's a Small World, so I didn't tell any of them that I absolutely loathe that right. But it wasn't that bad going on it because we made fun of most of the dolls. Juan took thousands of pictures of the dolls and other things. The "Mexican" part of the ride was so stereotypical! It had a bunch of dolls dancing to Mariachi music. Oh, Disney. You racist.
After going on the Pirates ride, we decided to head over to California Adventure. I made sure we went on the Tower of Terror first. That ride is so legit! It's my absolute favorite at the Disney Parks. I mean, California Screamin' is pretty good too, but it's only a close second to Tower of Terror. Juan had never been to CA Adventure either, so I was excited for him to go on it.
Monica, on the other hand, hates heights, so she wasn't gonna go on it with us. She had been on it once before and hated it. This time, she got in line with us and said she'd just bolt when we went to get on, but she never did! So she went on it again, she said it wasn't as bad but still not very pleasant.
Juan loved it!
Aislinn did too, but she loves everything. She's so nice. =) I like that her favorite ride is the teacup ride. We took some pretty funny pictures on that one.
After Tower of Terror we grabbed some grub. Next we went on the Grizzly River Run, which was another super fun ride. Monica got the most wet. Ha.
I think Monica was kind of frustrated with Juan because he kept wanting to rush from ride to ride, whereas her and Aislinn weren't too worried about getting on so many rides. I was pretty caught in the middle, so I just went along with whatever.
We left the park around 3:45. They dropped me off at home and went back to LA. Apparently Monica was an hour late to rehearsal (!)...but I guess she was okay with it.
When I got home I picked up my brothers from the sitters. Ahhh they're so cute. I honestly don't have a problem babysitting them anymore. Jonathan and Henry keep each other pretty entertained, especially since they're free to roam around outside in the backyard. And baby Fernando is pretty well-behaved. He rarely cries and stays entertained with the simplest of toys.
Tomorrow I'm going to babysit them for a while in the morning...hopefully I come away from that with the same attitude. Haha. My mom guilted me into babysitting though. She always does that. I had plans! I was supposed to play tennis with Vinnie. Now I feel terrible because I know he'll be disappointed that we can't play. He'll say its okay but I know he'll probably be kinda sad about it. Ugh.
But tomorrow night (FOR SURE) I am going out for sushi with Melissa and Tony! Holla. It'll be my first actual meeting with Tony. Apparently he's heard a lot about me, just like I've heard about him. That's so exciting! I've never known anyone to be excited to meet me. I sort of felt like a celebrity when he messaged me over facebook and said I was "exquisite." Awwww.
So yeah. Hopefully we'll eat some delicious shiz and then maybe see Star Trek? It depends on how tired I am.
I haven't been sleeping well at all. My brothers wake up way too early. Alex leaves for work at 4am, and I always hear him get up. College made me such a night owl! How irritating. I guess it doesn't help that I stay up until around 1am blogging and texting like this. I can't help it though. I feel like I need to make the most of my days and nights by finding time for social contact/networking, even if it's this late at night.
I keep telling myself I'll find time to make up for all the lost sleep. We'll see how that pans out.
We met my mom around 11am at the Monorail station. I like it when my mom meets my friends, I feel like she'll trust me more knowing that I have responsible, nice friends. Some part of my psyche has always suspected that she always thinks I'm lying to her when I tell her where I'm going and who I'll be with. Like in high school, she'd get very suspicious when I'd tell her I was going to hang out with guys. But I couldn't help that most of my friends were guys!
Anyway.
We went to Disneyland first and it was pretty empty! I hadn't been there in at least a year, so it was nice to be back. We went on Space Mountain, the Matterhorn (where Monica lose her phone, though she recovered it soon after), It's a Small World, the Teacups, Big Thunder Mountain, Haunted Mansion, and Pirates of the Caribbean. I think we covered all those rides in about 2.5 hours, which is crazy to think about.
We were hauling ass all over the park.
Juan was always like 20 feet ahead of us because he's apparently in love with Disneyland. Who would have known? He wore this crazy orange shirt with a glow-in-the-dark illustration of Mickey Mouse on it. So when we waited in line in dark places like Space Mountain, Mickey glowed! =)
Aislinn was really enthusiastic about going on It's a Small World, so I didn't tell any of them that I absolutely loathe that right. But it wasn't that bad going on it because we made fun of most of the dolls. Juan took thousands of pictures of the dolls and other things. The "Mexican" part of the ride was so stereotypical! It had a bunch of dolls dancing to Mariachi music. Oh, Disney. You racist.
After going on the Pirates ride, we decided to head over to California Adventure. I made sure we went on the Tower of Terror first. That ride is so legit! It's my absolute favorite at the Disney Parks. I mean, California Screamin' is pretty good too, but it's only a close second to Tower of Terror. Juan had never been to CA Adventure either, so I was excited for him to go on it.
Monica, on the other hand, hates heights, so she wasn't gonna go on it with us. She had been on it once before and hated it. This time, she got in line with us and said she'd just bolt when we went to get on, but she never did! So she went on it again, she said it wasn't as bad but still not very pleasant.
Juan loved it!
Aislinn did too, but she loves everything. She's so nice. =) I like that her favorite ride is the teacup ride. We took some pretty funny pictures on that one.
After Tower of Terror we grabbed some grub. Next we went on the Grizzly River Run, which was another super fun ride. Monica got the most wet. Ha.
I think Monica was kind of frustrated with Juan because he kept wanting to rush from ride to ride, whereas her and Aislinn weren't too worried about getting on so many rides. I was pretty caught in the middle, so I just went along with whatever.
We left the park around 3:45. They dropped me off at home and went back to LA. Apparently Monica was an hour late to rehearsal (!)...but I guess she was okay with it.
When I got home I picked up my brothers from the sitters. Ahhh they're so cute. I honestly don't have a problem babysitting them anymore. Jonathan and Henry keep each other pretty entertained, especially since they're free to roam around outside in the backyard. And baby Fernando is pretty well-behaved. He rarely cries and stays entertained with the simplest of toys.
Tomorrow I'm going to babysit them for a while in the morning...hopefully I come away from that with the same attitude. Haha. My mom guilted me into babysitting though. She always does that. I had plans! I was supposed to play tennis with Vinnie. Now I feel terrible because I know he'll be disappointed that we can't play. He'll say its okay but I know he'll probably be kinda sad about it. Ugh.
But tomorrow night (FOR SURE) I am going out for sushi with Melissa and Tony! Holla. It'll be my first actual meeting with Tony. Apparently he's heard a lot about me, just like I've heard about him. That's so exciting! I've never known anyone to be excited to meet me. I sort of felt like a celebrity when he messaged me over facebook and said I was "exquisite." Awwww.
So yeah. Hopefully we'll eat some delicious shiz and then maybe see Star Trek? It depends on how tired I am.
I haven't been sleeping well at all. My brothers wake up way too early. Alex leaves for work at 4am, and I always hear him get up. College made me such a night owl! How irritating. I guess it doesn't help that I stay up until around 1am blogging and texting like this. I can't help it though. I feel like I need to make the most of my days and nights by finding time for social contact/networking, even if it's this late at night.
I keep telling myself I'll find time to make up for all the lost sleep. We'll see how that pans out.
13.5.09
Bye Bye
Yesterday was goodbye.
I woke up around 9:30 and took a shower. I thought I was running late because my mom said she might get to school by 10, but that proved false.
The 2 hours in between me waking up and getting picked up proved to be better than I thought. Everyone seemed to be in denial about it being move-out day for quite a few of us. I was going to be the first to leave, Wendy would be next, then Becky. I told Wendy to just come to Orange County with me. Forget Maryland! Haha. But I understand how much she misses home. She seemed so happy to be going home, and I was equally happy for her.
When my mom finally got to SC and I had to say goodbye...well, that's when it got tough. I stood at Becky and Wendy's door, realizing I wouldn't be able to wander over there anymore when I'm bored or when I want a snack. Wendy approached to hug me and I was wiping tears away. "Oh, Melissaaaa!" That familiar screaming of my name made me cry even more. Wendy wouldn't be yelling my name in her distinct style anytime soon. As she hugged me, the tears just kept flowing. I somehow managed to compose myself, I have no idea how though. It wasn't too bad saying goodbye to Becky because I know I'll be seeing her. And I'll be living with her.
Monica and Michael accompanied me to my mom's truck downstairs. We loaded the last of my things and I thanked Michael for all his help. He gave me a hug and said he'd leave me alone with Monica to give a proper goodbye.
"It's been a really great year..." she started saying, but then we both just broke down. She kept talking through the tears. I told her I loved her and I think we hugged about 3 times. The first embrace I just cried on her shoulder. It shouldn't have been that bad, but it was. I'm going to see her Thursday for God's sake! But she'll be alone in our room until Saturday, so I understand the sadness. My half of the room will be desolate, she'll probably want to avoid being in there at all costs.
Oh, Monica.
I felt like I was leaving my sisters today. These girls have come to mean so much to me, and I didn't realize just how much I loved them until today. It's not a permanent goodbye, but it's still goodbye to this phase in our lives. I'll be seeing them all in the future, but we'll never be able to recreate the suite 607 vibe.
I woke up around 9:30 and took a shower. I thought I was running late because my mom said she might get to school by 10, but that proved false.
The 2 hours in between me waking up and getting picked up proved to be better than I thought. Everyone seemed to be in denial about it being move-out day for quite a few of us. I was going to be the first to leave, Wendy would be next, then Becky. I told Wendy to just come to Orange County with me. Forget Maryland! Haha. But I understand how much she misses home. She seemed so happy to be going home, and I was equally happy for her.
When my mom finally got to SC and I had to say goodbye...well, that's when it got tough. I stood at Becky and Wendy's door, realizing I wouldn't be able to wander over there anymore when I'm bored or when I want a snack. Wendy approached to hug me and I was wiping tears away. "Oh, Melissaaaa!" That familiar screaming of my name made me cry even more. Wendy wouldn't be yelling my name in her distinct style anytime soon. As she hugged me, the tears just kept flowing. I somehow managed to compose myself, I have no idea how though. It wasn't too bad saying goodbye to Becky because I know I'll be seeing her. And I'll be living with her.
Monica and Michael accompanied me to my mom's truck downstairs. We loaded the last of my things and I thanked Michael for all his help. He gave me a hug and said he'd leave me alone with Monica to give a proper goodbye.
"It's been a really great year..." she started saying, but then we both just broke down. She kept talking through the tears. I told her I loved her and I think we hugged about 3 times. The first embrace I just cried on her shoulder. It shouldn't have been that bad, but it was. I'm going to see her Thursday for God's sake! But she'll be alone in our room until Saturday, so I understand the sadness. My half of the room will be desolate, she'll probably want to avoid being in there at all costs.
Oh, Monica.
I felt like I was leaving my sisters today. These girls have come to mean so much to me, and I didn't realize just how much I loved them until today. It's not a permanent goodbye, but it's still goodbye to this phase in our lives. I'll be seeing them all in the future, but we'll never be able to recreate the suite 607 vibe.
12.5.09
What I'll Miss
Monica Caballero
-They way we could talk about band that most others had trouble understanding
-Purple DRANK
-Rick James
-Your obsession and micro-analyzation
-Being able to confide in you
-Step out
-Randomly yelling
Rebeca Diaz
-Singing awesome 90s nostalgic music
-Cereal parties
-Drinking and sharing secrets with one another
-Carrying on an affair between you and Doris
-DANNY B!
-Whitney Houston dance
-Lip-syncing to Pokemon, something that would soon make us facebook video addicts
-Being able to confide in you
-The way you'd sympathize when I had a problem
-You're so beautiful...like a tree
Wendy Barrios
-Your unwavering spirit
-That smile that quickly lights up anyone and any place
-Essay hair
-Sewing machine
-We're floor mates, and soul mates
-They way we could talk about band that most others had trouble understanding
-Purple DRANK
-Rick James
-Your obsession and micro-analyzation
-Being able to confide in you
-Step out
-Randomly yelling
Rebeca Diaz
-Singing awesome 90s nostalgic music
-Cereal parties
-Drinking and sharing secrets with one another
-Carrying on an affair between you and Doris
-DANNY B!
-Whitney Houston dance
-Lip-syncing to Pokemon, something that would soon make us facebook video addicts
-Being able to confide in you
-The way you'd sympathize when I had a problem
-You're so beautiful...like a tree
Wendy Barrios
-Your unwavering spirit
-That smile that quickly lights up anyone and any place
-Essay hair
-Sewing machine
-We're floor mates, and soul mates
11.5.09
What If I'm Headed Down This Road
Me: I've gotta go.
Him: I don't like this exit.
Me: Well, you've obviously been drinking and I don't want to talk to you. So, call me tomorrow or something.
Him: I don't like this exit.
Me: Well, you've obviously been drinking and I don't want to talk to you. So, call me tomorrow or something.
Sublime
I took my last final of freshman year today And it really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Yesterday I probably studied 30 minutes (or less). That kind of makes me regret not going home for mother's day, but oh wellz. I'll be seeing my mommy plenty for the next 3 months. The final was for my Comparative Literature class (aka World Lit). I've been doing well throughout the semester, but I have a feeling the professor is a very lenient grader.
I digress.
As I left the classroom, my professor handed me two of my papers and they were both A-pluses! =) So now that I'm sure I have a good grade in the class, I'm planning on asking the professor for a letter of recommendation. I need 3 letters in order to apply for my double major! I guess that's understandable since the major I want is part of the Cinema School.
I got back from class, checked my email, took a short nap, then went to lunch. I started packing and cleaning when I got back. The whole process riles up a mixture of emotion. I told my roommate, "I never thought I'd ever pack up all this stuff. It had just become so permanent."
In my mind I'd realize that I'd have a ton of stuff to pack when move-out time came, but I never thought move-out time would actually come. I was also afraid that I wouldn't have enough boxes and bags to put things in, but I have plenty. I've amounted possessions along with storage space throughout the year.
So here I have it. 9 months of my life, tucked into bags and boxes under my bed.
I digress.
As I left the classroom, my professor handed me two of my papers and they were both A-pluses! =) So now that I'm sure I have a good grade in the class, I'm planning on asking the professor for a letter of recommendation. I need 3 letters in order to apply for my double major! I guess that's understandable since the major I want is part of the Cinema School.
I got back from class, checked my email, took a short nap, then went to lunch. I started packing and cleaning when I got back. The whole process riles up a mixture of emotion. I told my roommate, "I never thought I'd ever pack up all this stuff. It had just become so permanent."
In my mind I'd realize that I'd have a ton of stuff to pack when move-out time came, but I never thought move-out time would actually come. I was also afraid that I wouldn't have enough boxes and bags to put things in, but I have plenty. I've amounted possessions along with storage space throughout the year.
So here I have it. 9 months of my life, tucked into bags and boxes under my bed.
9.5.09
Rekindle
Coming to college made me regret not enjoying high school as much as I could have. But I think I've been making up for it lately by talking to old friends.
It's amazing how Facebook can keep friendships alive.
While some seem to be disappointed in how reliant society has become on social networking sites, I happen to see it as a very good thing in many aspects. Whether its Facebook, Myspace, Twitter, Instant Messaging or any sort of blogging site, we each have a chance to keep tabs on those we cherish, those we wish cherished us, or random people who you kinda sorta know from that one party or from that one week of school where you were really close. It can reach a certain creepy, stalking level, but most of the time its pretty tame.
So through the Facebook and instant messaging system, I'm able to know what's going on in my friends' lives without really directly speaking with them. And if something grabs my attention or makes me want to reach out to a person, I do my best to follow through.
Take my friend Teresa. Senior year in high school she was one of my closest friends, but only at school. We'd eat lunch together and sit in class together, but outside of school we only hung out a few times. I considered her one of my best friends, but not on an extremely deep level. Now that we're both off at college though (she's at Stanford), we've connected on a much deeper level.
And this is all despite being 400 miles apart.
Our experiences going from Santa Ana to private, elite institutions have brought us together. She's one of the few, few people who really understands where I'm coming from when I say that most of the students here are unknowingly greedy and superficial. It's a frustrating situation to be in, but at least I can IM her from time to time and have someone understand my college experience.
It's amazing how Facebook can keep friendships alive.
While some seem to be disappointed in how reliant society has become on social networking sites, I happen to see it as a very good thing in many aspects. Whether its Facebook, Myspace, Twitter, Instant Messaging or any sort of blogging site, we each have a chance to keep tabs on those we cherish, those we wish cherished us, or random people who you kinda sorta know from that one party or from that one week of school where you were really close. It can reach a certain creepy, stalking level, but most of the time its pretty tame.
So through the Facebook and instant messaging system, I'm able to know what's going on in my friends' lives without really directly speaking with them. And if something grabs my attention or makes me want to reach out to a person, I do my best to follow through.
Take my friend Teresa. Senior year in high school she was one of my closest friends, but only at school. We'd eat lunch together and sit in class together, but outside of school we only hung out a few times. I considered her one of my best friends, but not on an extremely deep level. Now that we're both off at college though (she's at Stanford), we've connected on a much deeper level.
And this is all despite being 400 miles apart.
Our experiences going from Santa Ana to private, elite institutions have brought us together. She's one of the few, few people who really understands where I'm coming from when I say that most of the students here are unknowingly greedy and superficial. It's a frustrating situation to be in, but at least I can IM her from time to time and have someone understand my college experience.
7.5.09
Kachow
Took my film final today. I don't think I did great, but I didn't do terribly either. I'm hoping for a B+. At least I only have one more final left!!!! =)
AND I bought Felipa and I Weenie Roast tickets!
My summer concert list:
5/16/09
Weenie Roast with Felipa
JIMMY EAT WORLD, Weezer, Kings of Leon, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Rancid, Airborne Toxic Event and others
@ Irvine Verizon Wireless
6/7/09
Independence Jam with Doris
Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Metric
@ Oceanside Pier Plaza
6/13/09
Reik with Diana
@ Pomona
7/19/09
Coldplay with...everybody
@ Irvine Verizon Wireless
7/31/09
No Doubt with Krystal, Janet, Aimee
@ Irvine Verizon Wireless
AND I bought Felipa and I Weenie Roast tickets!
My summer concert list:
5/16/09
Weenie Roast with Felipa
JIMMY EAT WORLD, Weezer, Kings of Leon, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Rancid, Airborne Toxic Event and others
@ Irvine Verizon Wireless
6/7/09
Independence Jam with Doris
Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Metric
@ Oceanside Pier Plaza
6/13/09
Reik with Diana
@ Pomona
7/19/09
Coldplay with...everybody
@ Irvine Verizon Wireless
7/31/09
No Doubt with Krystal, Janet, Aimee
@ Irvine Verizon Wireless
6.5.09
Tweet tweet?
Now that more people are starting to create these public blogs, maybe I'll start posting more. I wish I had more time to do this kind of silly, unimportant writing.
Right now I'm swamped with:
1. Studying for film final, which is tomorrow at 2pm
2. Editing for my internship online
3. Figuring out how to start packing for move-out day =X
Fuuuun stuff.
Not really.
Gosh, the end is so close, but so far!! Monday at 10am, I will wander back to my dorm, and be in disbelief that my academic year is completely over. It won't hit me until I get back to Orange County. I'll be sitting around very bored, wishing Becky's room were just steps away from mine, where I could go and talk about nothing with her. I hope I'm not lonely. I hope we'll all actually follow through on our word to keep in touch. I have a feeling that won't happen though.
Right now I'm swamped with:
1. Studying for film final, which is tomorrow at 2pm
2. Editing for my internship online
3. Figuring out how to start packing for move-out day =X
Fuuuun stuff.
Not really.
Gosh, the end is so close, but so far!! Monday at 10am, I will wander back to my dorm, and be in disbelief that my academic year is completely over. It won't hit me until I get back to Orange County. I'll be sitting around very bored, wishing Becky's room were just steps away from mine, where I could go and talk about nothing with her. I hope I'm not lonely. I hope we'll all actually follow through on our word to keep in touch. I have a feeling that won't happen though.
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